I'm in a really fucked up mood right now. I don't really know why. I'm just . . . egh. I had a lot of fun at Dro's house in Ohio this weekend. It was sweet, we jammed some, and we taught Emma how to play a simple version of the bassline of Twist and Shout and we also showed her the bassline to the long weird-beat section of that Mars Volta song, "Cygnus... Vismund Cygnus" that is really awesome. And we all ate at LaRosa's, this pretty sweet pizza place, really good. And then we ate at this awesome ice cream place, Graeter's. And this was with Dro, Katia, Emma and me, and then also with Jennylynn, Cara, Molly and Amanda. And I felt really cool at points at the ice cream place, because I was being pretty fuckin' hyper and I was being pretty crazy and Jennylynn was laughing really hard at stuff I was saying/doing, and Cara was saying that she liked me a lot and that we should hang out more, and Molly, to whom I've never really talked, was laughing and we were all having fun. It was a lot of fun. And then after that, the four extra girls left whom we had met up with to eat, and it was just Dro, Katia, Emma and I again. We went back and talked and stuff. And eventually we ended up watching about two hours of TV. Some of it was this "Sunday Night Sex Show with Sue" or whatever that I have actually seen a few times before that is really awesome, it's so fuckin' hilarious, this old lady talking about dildos and all. And then we watched some old Loony Tunes and that was grand, and some Tom and Jerry. All really fun. And Emma and I were cuddling a lot during the TV sessions and it was making me happy. And then eventually we were all falling asleep (well, I wasn't, haha), but yeah, so Dro went up to his room and Emma, Kat and I decided to sleep downstairs. Kat ended up sleeping on the couch, and Emma and I made a little bed on the floor next to the couch and turned off the lights and Emma and I snuggled a lot and it was great. And then for about an hour after that, the three of us just had one of those classic night time chats that are just so great. We talked about farts a looot, for at least a half an hour. And then we all kind of talked about how our friendships started. And it was so great and really a lot of fun. Current Mood:
I think this is where the root of my weird mood might be. I kind of figured this out while talking to Dana tonight about it all (who by the way was really nice and listened to me kind of whine about nothing and be stupid). But yeah. Those talks and chats and times are always so nice. People aren't sarcastic constantly; they're nice and complimentative; they're free and open and laughy; they listen, and they're not afraid to talk about anything; they're so TRUE. Now, why the FUCK is it that every time, EVERY TIME after something like that, the next morning, IT'S BACK TO BEING REGULAR AGAIN. The next morning, people are awkward again; they make it seem like the night before didn't happen; they make it seem like what they said then really has no relevance in the real world. Oh god, it really . . . gets to me. I really want things to be like that more often. I mean, god, I'm not blaming this all on them or anything, and I love them so much, always. It's not like I'm mad at them. I'm just mad at the situation that goddamitall, nothing ever stays like that! It always goes back! AGH! And so I've just been in a kind of shitty mood all day. And on top of that, I lost my room key so will probably have to pay $50 for another, and today I've just been taking sarcasm straight to the heart, like I do when I'm in a bad mood. Well, that sounded a little extreme, but I just mean, sometimes I can't take a lot of sarcasm, and it's another thing that's been getting to me. People are always giving me shit, whether it be for the jokes I give (and yes I know they're bad, but god), or the way I act, or for just . . . I don't know, anything. And it's totally obvious they're kidding, at least most of the time, I just can't handle too much of it sometimes. Dana says it's 'cause I'm too nice and that that's why it's easy to give me shit 'cause I don't get angry back usually, and that's sweet of her. But I don't know. It just gets to me. Yeah. So that's my day. But I did have a lot of fun in Ohio, I really did, and it would be cool to go back sometime. I just kind of want this day to change or end. I don't know.
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